A Letter to Me

Well, do you know that you actually have a power in your own life? -- you can make  boundaries of something and its fine, its totally your own handle, at the same time you also can start to do something that you really like, and start to ignore what others says (if it bother you). 

You are a fresh graduate, its okay if you want to continue your study, volunteering events, plan to get internship or even apply for job that you like, ITS TOTALLY FINE, OKAY? What makes you insecure is you always compare your life with your surroundings, and its toxic, makes you feel unworthy.

Please, I beg you, I beg you NOT to compare your life with others, because you NEVER know how struggling they are to reach their own goals. Focus on your goals, I really understand that feels when you see your friend success, it might hurt you in your deepest heart, but dont ever be sad, God has a better plan for you, and everyone has its own journey and maybe they deserve it? you might think that your goals ain't found yet, its really okay, but dont forget that God has the best plan and time to serve it (yet don't forget too pray and keep trying).

Be grateful, be grateful of what you have, others may think that its nothing, people might underestimate you, don't hear that, in other parts there are many people really want to be like you. Believe it or not. Be happy. Love your surroundings eventho you are hurted or you are sad. Its okay to have a bad day, because someone said: Its just a bad day, not a bad life, right? 

You deserve to be happy, Ilma. Cheers on every step you had been through and just go ahead. I am so proud of you.

*originally written by 22nd girl who is currently finding out her right road, at 11.54 PM, in her dark room, eventho its dark already but ain't for her future - hope so :)*